I went to a bridal shower today for my friend Angie. I am so excited for her & had so much fun watching her unwrap her gifts & plan for her new life with her husband! It's such a fun time & it's my second bridal shower in the last couple of weeks, so it's just that time of year! But of course it had me thinking about Isis & the future & the fact that she's growing up so fast & one day - not so very long from now she will be sitting there opening gifts & planning for her bright, beautiful future.
But then I stopped.
I am so bad about constantly thinking about the future - planning, worrying - or thinking about the past - reminiscing, mourning. I am such a thinker & such a planner & it can be a great thing when you're meal planning or thinking about savings & retirement. But at the same time, it can be to my detriment when what I really need to do is just be here. Now.
So that's what I'm focusing on this week. I'm going to try to live each day for that day. I want to be all in it. I want to enjoy every second that I have now with Isis. Sure, she's got a whole lifetime ahead of her & I'll have plenty of time to be excited & worried about that. Right now she needs me to be here.
Today she was teething. Again. Those horrible molars that look so incredibly painful are just awful!! Although, it meant that I got to cuddle with her quite a bit today. We sat on the couch & played with this little bunny toy that Lewis' mom gave her. She sucked that thumb & laid her head on my chest & I was just there, in that moment.
It was a great moment.