I walked in graduation in May & now just have my student teaching to complete!
I'm in the middle of my last full week at home with Isis before I start student teaching next Wednesday. I am both excited & scared. I'm also a little sad. I have such mixed emotions about this. For one, I have always been the woman who knew that she wasn't cut out to be a stay at home mom. As much as I adore spending time with Isis, I also have a passion for teaching & I can't wait until the day that I have my own classroom & my own group of students. I also know that we are not at a point where we can prepare for the future & have me stay at home. We get by fine in the day to day, but we want to save for college & we would love to go on vacations & mission trips & we would love to give to organizations in need beyond our normal tithe & have more babies!! Not to mention the fact that a teacher's health insurance would far exceed what we have right now for me & Isis. So there have always been many reasons why I have wanted to work.
At the same time, I went to daycare from the time I was very young. I still have fond memories of daycare & I still have a relationship with the people who ran the daycare I was a part of. My mom actually just retired from her job as a kindergarten teacher & is now the preschool coordinator at the daycare I went to. Isis will go there when it's time for her to be in preschool. I want her to be able to spend time apart from me & become an independent, social little girl. This isn't saying that she couldn't become that if I stayed home, it's just one of the reasons why I am confident in daycare for her later. I have a wonderful friend who is going to watch her in the fall while I'm student teaching. My best friend, Diana is also going to watch her on Fridays. So I feel really good about where she will be & as I can see she's starting to get super clingy to me lately, I think it will be good for her to learn that she can enjoy her time with other caretakers as well as see that I come back when I leave.
Overall, I know that me starting student teaching & ultimately becoming a full-time teacher myself is what is best for my family & me specifically. I know myself & I think I will be a better mother if I'm able to contribute in these ways. I feel so blessed to live in a country where a woman is free to choose whether she wants to stay home or work & where I see wonderful examples of both choices on a daily basis. Being a mom is tough either way. It is really hard to think of being away from Isis during the days, but thinking about our future & our opportunities because I'm doing this makes me feel confident & proud of myself for finishing school & starting in a career that I care a lot about. I know that Isis will be in good hands & I hope she is one day proud of her mama for becoming a teacher!
How do you handle being a working mom if you are one?
How did you decide which choice was best for you? (Working vs staying at home)
What tips would you have for a working mom?