Becoming a mom has changed several things about me - in a good way, I think. I find myself much more willing to really think about who I am, who I want to be & who I should be. I've taken some steps to become a better person, a better wife, a better daughter, sister, friend and in particular a better mom. I've been going to counseling. I don't think I've mentioned that on my blog before. There are just some things in my life that need to be worked through with a counselor. She's a Christian & she is really wonderful & has been abundantly helpful. I hope to show Isis & any future children that counseling or therapy is nothing to be scared of. I mean, goodness, who hasn't had a time in their life when they could have benefited from a professional working through some tough stuff with them? Life is hard.
Well, despite the fact that I had a wonderful time today with my friend Courtney who has been in Europe for the past 5 weeks, today was really hard for me. I'm coming to the realization that in certain situations in my life, I need to learn to be more assertive - not aggressive, not condescending, not judgmental - but assertive, proactive...brave. Specifically with certain people. I am now responsible for a brand new little life that is going to need my protection, my guidance & my strength to help them weave their way through this life. So I need to be brave. I need to be sincere. And I need to be confident. While I daily give her to God, I also have to accept the responsibility He has graciously laid in my hands. I may not get it right every time, but I sincerely believe He has given me some instincts that should not be ignored. But it takes strength to defend some of them. Bravery.
I'm ready to step up.
Are there areas where you need to step up with bravery in your life?
For yourself, your family, your children?
I'd love to hear from others who are somewhere near where I am.