I never saw myself as a stay-at-home mom. I have always had much respect for those moms that chose to do that, it just wasn't me. Now, after 4 weeks of being at home, I have even MORE respect for those moms. It's really hard for me! Part of it is the fact that I get bored. She's sleeping quite a bit right now, so I'll have an hour or so at a time where I'm just sitting at home trying to find things to do. There are only so many fun things on TV at 2pm on a Tuesday. Thank goodness for DVR & movie channels! Except I think I've watched What Happens in Vegas on HBO like 5 times in the last 2 weeks. I've gotten really good at keeping everything clean & organized & making sure the laundry is always done and all that jazz. And I've had some wonderful visitors over the past couple of weeks! I've also ventured out a little, but there aren't too many places I want to go because it's cold & flu season & Isis is still so new! But we're working on it.
It's also hard because there isn't too much I can do with her right now. Any suggestions for that? She doesn't really interact yet. I maintain a running commentary of my day for her. I'm always telling her what I'm doing and what's going on. So I try to talk as much as I can. And then I hold her & we stretch & do massage & I make faces, etc. But she hasn't smiled yet. I can tell that she's really learning & taking everything in, but the lack of interaction is rough. It's like doing all this stuff for someone who doesn't show any reciprocation. haha I know we're talking about a baby, but still! That definitely makes it hard! You have to agree! But at 4 weeks now, we're getting closer to some milestones! We do tummy time everyday and she's getting better at holding her head up. Still not too steady, but she can do it for a while! She also holds her head up when you hold her at your shoulder. I think it's really cute! She always turns & looks at me! She's a cutie!! I'm still waiting for a smile! I think that'll be so fun!
Already she's gaining weight so fast & growing so much! I can tell this whole first year is just going to fly by! The past 4 weeks have gone by in a flash - which is awesome because those first 2 weeks felt like a YEAR, so to look back and think the first month really seems like a day is such a relief! Maybe I will have more kids!! haha J/K we still want 3.
My friend Maria stopped by yesterday to bring Isis some adorable things she had made for her & she mentioned that she liked reading this blog because it's "real." I don't really have a problem talking about the things that are hard for me about motherhood so far. It's hard for everyone, how would it not be? It's a complete transition from freedom to doing everything around a baby. And you have to do everything for her. That's hard! But I absolutely love being a mom & I'm so happy that Isis is in our family now. So don't mistake my discussion of the ins & outs of my parenting experience with me complaining or being unhappy. That's so far from the truth!Things are great & they get better every week, but it's still really hard!
The one thing I haven't been able to bring myself to do yet is work out!! I really need to! Although I'm down to just 4 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight. But still everything is different with my body - like my pants are still too tight and stuff. Things just don't fit the same. I need to walk or do pilates or something, but I just can't find the motivation yet. I need to really work on that.
Anyway, we're 4 weeks in & things are going good! Hope they just continue to get better!